Can I just say…

That I am really, really , really fricking happy right now and there’s nobody around to tell.

Nope, nothing in particular has happened, I’m just really happy and I want to share and note.

Fuck yeah

Fun in the sun

I believe I have previously mentioned that work is awful right now. The job I basically created and earned was kind of nicked, projects I had undertaken my boss didn’t tell her boss about, so I got no credit for the work, and seriously shit communication damaged my reputation at the point where the decision about who should do the role I wanted was being made.

Essentially, I got screwed. Sadly, nobody quite worked out how or why till it had happened and I resigned.

That said, I now have a better paying job lined up at a better school and its definitely all for the best, so it itsnt all gloom, but the next 6 weeks until I finish my current contract look tricky.

I feel so fucked over, bored and excluded that I’m really not.enjoying my days, so I’m working on small ways of improving my days.

Today, for example, I took advantage of the plus 20 degrees and blazing sunshine to bugger off to the park and sunbathe in my underwear for an hour, reading a book. I just organised an emergency “shit day” pack with a towel, scream, book and shorts to keep under my desk. Sorted.

I can use spare time to write more, get out of the building, who knows. Suggestions are welcome.

My diet, why hast though forsaken me?

Because I’m in a new relationship and its impossible to say “no, please: don’t make me delicious French cuisine with potatoes, cream, bacon and cheese. Id rather have a salad and some unsweetened beans. You carry on though”.

Fortunately, despite my over-indulgence during the Easter break, I’ve maintained my weight and can now attempt to carry on losing gradually and perhaps be comfortably in the 60′s of kilos by my birthday at the end of June.

In general I’ve adapted so that I am good at work during the day and less strict at night so that dinner won’t be a pain in the arse for the boy as well.

My current goals as they stand are to be 69kg by June 23rd, to run once per week, train twice and teach the boxing class twice. Hopefully this will see me a happier, fitter, healther 28 year old!

Again hopefully, the fact that work is a massive pile of shit right now and a daily source of unhappiness should mean that thinking about my health can be my biggest priority. I’m going to do what is necessary for the kids and otherwise forget the place between 4pm and 8am the next day.

Plan? Plan.

When I am a grown up

Recently I’ve been thinking about what I want to achieve by the time I’m 30. Yes, OK, I’m only 27, but in a month or so I’ll be 28 and that is, let’s face it, almost 30.

I know folk don’t like to admit it, but if you were just counting, say, and you got to 27 or 28, you’d say you were *almost* at 30. Wouldn’t you? You would.

So, there, like it or not, I’m numerically almost 30.

And that is a big number and I want to have some shit in order by then so that I can just deal with the fact that I’ll then be a proper grown up, with declining fertility, an even greater propensity to sag and little idea of what my future holds.

So here, in its mediocre glory, is my List and I’m sure I will add to it as I go.

Finances

1.  Be financially solvent: no debt

2. Have savngs and be saving regularly

3. Have a secure, international Pension

Career/Training

4. Figure out what I want to do with my life: find a path in education or a new career path which will give me challenge and excitement, either mentally, physically or both

5. Get a driving licence

Health

6. Be a healthy, maintain able weight, ideally c.65kg

7. Train again in Thailand

Fun

8. Try Taiko Drumming

9. Try Roller Derby

10. Travel to at least 3 new countries

11. Learn something new for the sake of learning

And that’s all for now, folks…

Update

Well, I’ve adapted the diet a little as it’s proving impossible to stick to it so rigidly at the moment, with so much socialising going on. Now, I eat mainly protein and slow carbs as often as possible, allow myself carbs when unavoidable and go easy on the cheat day. And this week I’m pretty sure I’ve lost a good kilo and a half, which I will confirm tomorrow morning. Last night at least I was down to 72.1, which is my lowest in a long time and should be even better in the morning.

Hooray!

In other news, things are pretty awesome. I resigned from my current job and signed a new two year contract at a school I feel will suit me better, here in Berlin.

I’m having great fun with my friends and seeing someone (who is great) and that is all lovely.

Hooray for Spring, and long may the good luck continue

Week 3

Well, week 2 was kind of a wash out. I was out for dinner a lot and distracted from the task at hand, so I’m back up to 73.3, which is a shame but not a disaster. This morning I have already slightly failed by not getting up on time for breakfast. Oh dear. Monday is never my best day, so we’ll see how I do otherwise. Apart from that, in general I’ve been in a good mood all week which was great and obviously unusual! Hopefully it will return soon, when the rain and the work have gone away…

Week 2, Day 2

Well, I’m trying for slow carb sainthood but am more likely to be martyred at this rate!

 

Doing well 2 meals out of three at the moment, so yesterday it was a good breakfast and lunch but then mexican with a friend, which involved corn chips.

Today I’ve done my best, but did end up eating a brownie and a Lindor… whoops.

 

Nevertheless, here is dinner: Roasted vegetables with saugage, tomato, cucumber and balsamic salad and homemade beanburgers

 

To make the bean burger, I sauteed garlic and spring onions,mashed 2 cans of brown beans, added some roast aubergine and zucchini fined chopped, mixed up and thickened with a little organic flour. I flavoured with branston pickle and seasoning, then formed into patties and fried in olive oil.

nom nom nom, and there about 8 left

Cheat day and first weigh in…

Huzzah! It’s fuckin’ cheat day – life is worth living!!!

Actually, I really haven’t gone properly overboard, because I was a bit of a failure yesterday. However, the day is yet young and I have plans for chocolate cake and a burger…

So, here are this week’s results:

Start weight -        74.3       Today’s weight     72.8= 1.5 lost!

Further, 2cms off my chest, 1 off each arm, 2.6 cms off my hips/belly.

Sadly, I don’t know my original waist measurement, because I wrote it down wrong. What a tit. But I’m confident it’s less.

Success!

Slip UPS

Whoops a daisy… first error was eating smoked salmon for breakfast which I wasn’t sure about but is apparently not allowed.

Secondly I ate 2 squares of galaxy caramel, which I can’t say wasn’t amazing, because it was!

Thirdly, some kids made me a fruit salad with vanilla joghurt, which I just couldn’t refuse a) because they were so nice and b) because love fruit.

Now, I couldn’t say “fuck it” and make this my cheat day and pig out for the next few hours, which won’t really give me the opportunity to really let go as wished, or say this was just a bad diet day and still have a cheat tomorrow.

Hmmm… what to do….?

Day 4…

and all is well.

I’m defintiely eating loads on the Slow Carb diet, although the difficult bits are sweet things (of which I can’t have any), and snacks, which basically for me come down to boiled eggs.

Yesterday I had so much energy I was deeply irritating to be around, (which is usually true for different reasons) and was a hper-mentalist at boxing training.

During the night, however, I woke up several times feeling sort of drugged and confused, which was very strange and can’t be accounted for by anything special I ate or drank.

Today, I feel EXHAUSTED. Whether this is the diet or the upsurge in exercise, I can’t be sure, but I wont let it put me off. Already I can see some difference in some of my clothes and somebody commented I looked slimmer.

Whoop!

2 days till cheat day…..